Thursday, January 31, 2008

Best Laid Plans.....

Today, I had plans. Yep, I did. What I did not have planned, was my daughter having a temperature of 102 and missing school. Also, not planned was an entire side of my fence falling due to strong winds. The big, not planned events of the day were the dog piles, or should I say the semi-circular mushy, wet, wanna be piles of poop that were all over the house! I so, did not have any of that planned.
What I did have planned was celebrating the 13th anniversary of the day I met my Husband. Not that "he" remembers. I do, and that's what matters. I had planned on making a special chocolate cake and a nice dinner and having the kids to bed early, and spending some time together. Instead, we are pulling up pooped on carpet, trying to find dogs that wandered off due to no fence, consoling my son that can't have his friend spend the night because his sister is sick.
Ahhh, the joy of best laid plans.

Saturday, January 26, 2008

Why Can't it be that Simple?

It's crazy these days, isn't it? Having to live up to some "super mom" image. Most households have both parents working, not too mention all the extra curricular activities the children are in. It was finally a sunny day here in North Texas. I am one of these people that have to have my blinds up and able to look out the windows. I know it can make your utility bill higher, but I figure if I get sunshine, I'm saving on antidepressants. I was going back and forth in and out of my kitchen, which has a bay window in it. Every time I walked by I could see my dogs outside, just sleeping, laying there in the sun. About the 5th time I walked by, I thought to myself, gosh, I would love to just be lounging in the sun. My big dog Luther had himself in some twisted position that did not look comfortable at all, but watching his breathing I could tell he was out like a light! My little dog Regina was pretty much curled up in a circle and looked so cute and innocent. Dog's don't worry about music lessons, soccer games, if they have Xbox 360, or a Wii.
Heck, they don't even have to think about what's for dinner!! Now, that really gets me. Just makes ya wonder, why can't it be that simple?

Thursday, January 24, 2008

Chica's Day Off

Get it? Like Ferris Beuller's day off. Okay, I thought it was funny. Anyway, I had to take today off. I could not even sleep last night, my body hurt so bad. I ached all over. Just thinking about a part of my body, made that part ache. Not even the "alleve" I took alleviated any pain. I feel better this evening. Now I'm just grumpy! Go figure... I have noticed my children being very supportive of my journey. My son has started doing crunches in the evening. All without any prodding on my part. I have had a headache today. I think that is why I'm grumpy. I tend to get grumpy when I'm in pain. Weird, I know. I have such a high pain tolerance, that I can continue functioning, and not realize how bad the pain is, until I sit still. How often does that happen? Exactly. I had a bazillion errands to run today. I took care of all of them. Woo Hoo, and Yee-ha. Hmm, here is another reason that might explain my grumpiness. I had a speeding ticket awhile back. I went to "court" if you can call it that, in the podunk town that I got it in. Their "court" is appearing before the judge and having her either give you defensive driving, lower your fee, or community service. In the big cities, if the police officer that cited you does not show up at court, your ticket is dismissed. NOOOO, not in this town. Well, I got "granted" a month to pay the "court fees" and then 3 months from the day the fee was paid, I was to take defensive driving. Well, for some reason, I got the due date wrong in my head. I was "late" by one day and they would not budge. So, now not only do I have to pay the entire fine, but there is no way to get it removed from my record. That piss*s me off! So, I drive down to the so called municipal building or whatever, which looks like a double wide trailer from the outside. I walk in, surrendering myself to pay the entire fine, and they don't take checks!!! ARRRRRR! Not having a few extra hundred dollars cash on me, I now have to go back, yet again. Joy! Where is my friend Jose when I need him?? (Jose Cuervo)

Tuesday, January 22, 2008

Taking the Plunge!

Woo Hoo! Yee-ha! and all that Jazz. I did it! I finally did it! I meet with "THE TRAINER." Insert theatrical music here, like when the "who dun it" is solved. I did have an appointment at 9:30am with another mini Barbie. This one was not at all as bad as the first one. She was more regular looking and seemed down to earth. Nonetheless, the "boss" man called 15 minutes before the appointment and said he needed to speak to me "about my appointment." I heard that message and thought, GREAT! Another one "gone?" I blew off the whole entire thing. Ok, I guess here, I should mention that I forgot about the appointment until I heard the message. It didn't matter. It sounded like there was a problem, so it would not have happened anyway. Right? This is where you agree with me, nodd your head please. Thank you. Finally around noon, I get my groove back and decided I need to do this. I called twice until I finally reached, "HIM." His name is Melvin, and he is a really nice guy. I think this will be a good fit. I felt comfortable with him, heck he knows how much I weigh! My husband doesn't even know that. Hmmmm. I know the point of this "meeting" was to have them give me their sales pitch on how you need to incorporate "trainers" into your routine, to get the best results, yada, yada, yada. He gave me his schpeel and I looked him in the eyes and said, "do you practice that at home?" At this point, we had developed a good enough repoire for a comment like that. Heck the guy drew this triangle and had letters and hand gestures. He was working it folks. I was short on time, so we wrapped it up soon after that. I did assure him I do have plans of getting a trainer. I want to ask for "training sessions" for my Birthday from all my friends. What a smart cookie, I am huh? Yeah, I know I should ask for something more "lasting" for such a milestone birthday. What's more lasting than improving my health? Well, all in all it was a good session. Parts of my body are hurting me this evening. I already took some pharmaceutical therapy for it. I'm fresh and clean and pretty smelling and off to bed.

Thursday, January 17, 2008

Stepping Out of the Box

I finally did it! Not for very long, but the point is I did it! I got myself out on the huge, massive floor with all the different weight machines and got to work. I don't know why I have been so hesitant to get working with the machines. I have no problem getting into a swim suit and bouncing around in the water in front of a bunch of strangers. Heavens forbid, I have more clothing and sit on a machine and lift some weights. Crazy, yep that's me! I thought it would be easier if I worked out with someone. I meet a woman in the water class and she agreed to meet me the next morning. Just as she was walking out to leave she says, "The only reason I will not be here, is if I have to take my son to the Dr. He has strep throat." Well, that pretty much told me she was O U T. I decided to give her the benefit of the doubt and show up anyway. Late, of course. Nope, she was not there. I did see another woman from the water class and got a few tips from her, thankfully. I did some arms, abbs, and legs. Not much of each, just enough to remind me of how out of shape I've gotten. I am trying to be positive and look at my small step as a big accomplishment. Each time I go, should be easier. I hope to make it to the water class tonight, if it's not freeeeezing outside, like it is now. I have to say, I feel better with just the few small steps I am taking. Keep going chica!

Wednesday, January 9, 2008

One Foot in Front of the Other

I have gotten to the gym a few times. It took me about 2 days to recover from whatever I did to my leg. I must have pulled a muscle in class, cuz it was not only painful to walk, but challenging as well. I still don't feel in the "swing" of things. I keep telling myself, one step at a time. I didn't put the weight on overnight, it's not coming off that quickly either. I still have not had my training session with the trainer. I found out today that Barbie was transferred to a different location. I had an appointment set up with another trainer and she called and cancelled. Maybe next week, I'll get that together.

Friday, January 4, 2008

Have you ever built a rocket?

Did you ever build a rocket in elementary school? Remember the anticipation? The visions of it soaring, high up in the air. The entire class gathers and one at a time, you take turns igniting your rocket. Your heart is beating so fast, what will happen? Will your dream come true? It starts to take off, slowly, then fizzes out and hits the floor. BUMMER! All that work for about 3 seconds of misery. Actually, more than that, since you will be teased about this for the rest of your school days. That's what came to mind as the day passed and I decided I just could NOT meet with Barbie. I have to be comfortable with this person, and I was not. I did make it to the gym that day, only to hop on the Precor and remind myself of every single ounce of extra weight I was carrying. I lasted about 15 minutes. I was too insecure to try any weight machines. I walked around the place, trying to lower my heart rate and keep from having a heart attack on my first day. After getting feeling back in my legs, being able to breathe without it hurting, I headed home. Yep, major fizz for the first day. I did feel sore the next day. I'm not beating myself up. I have lots of weight to take off and every small step counts! I did make it to the aqua class yesterday. Not sure if I will keep going to the class. I definitely will keep getting in the pool, since no impact is the best on my joints right now. I know that deep down in me, not only is there one Hot Chica, this chic is crazy. I love the feeling of sore muscles! I ache in places I had forgotten I had. Each step I take reminds me, I'm on a mission. I love that. Sicko, I know!

Wednesday, January 2, 2008

Ready Set Go!

Well, here we are. I finally did it and joined a "fitness club" last night. I only got the tour and today I have an appointment to "work out" with my physical trainer. I don't even know how many sessions I get with this. Hopefully, just this one, cuz I already didn't like this chickie. She just rubbed me wrong. After working 12 + hrs on New Years Day, the last thing I wanted to do was sit in front of some blonde barbie girl and have her ask me, "So, why are you here?" What do you think Barbie? Arrrrr! I just wanted to look her straight in the eyes and let her have it. I am, dare I say it? Even my cardiologist hates this term, "morbidly obese." There, said it. Can we move on now. To make matters worse I am a Registered Nurse. Yeah, so I should know better. Well, 40 days from today, I will step into my 40th year of life. I want to begin that year on a better foot than previously. I know I have a long way to go. Put one foot in front of the other, is my mantra. The meeting of this personal trainer ended with "I want you to write down EVERYTHING you eat in the next 24 hours. That is your homework." So where does that have me today, totally concentrated and consumed with the thought of FOOD! I need to go get some workout clothes. Sadly, I don't even have anything I could work out in. Got the t-shirts but need some decent covering for the lower bodd. So, begins a plethora of firsts today. First time for me to create a blog. First step towards a better life. I just hope after my session today, I will still be able to "step" tomorrow......